Jesus, I’ve just been fighting Your Spirit so much. My desires and motivation are so sinful, and my heart runs for darkness.
Come find me. I’m lost again.
I feel like I have not been leading very well at all, and my counsel to MacKenzie the other day was not from You but from my own agenda. Jesus, for You only I wanna rip out the nastiness. I do love her and want to point her to You, but I’m scared of being left behind if she dates someone and I stay single. And that is biasing what I say.
Thank You for conviction, Lord, but protect me from condemning myself with discipline. Lead me to cling to You and what You have done.
God, I wanna bring a big issue before You, and everything that comes with it. And that issue is depression. And me maybe having it. I don’t know what to do. Part of me does want a pill to fix my mind and lift the heaviness. I know that You are sufficient, but I’ve been fighting that truth and not believing it.
I feel so inadequate to deal with any of this. God, I’m scared that I’ve just learned to speak all the right words, but still keep my heart from truly being broken by Your truth. I’m scared I will fall away. I’m not trusting You to hold firm to me.
Lift this darkness from me, Lord. You have rescued me and turned my heart to You. On my own, I am nothing. But You have given me worth for You, Lord. My life is hidden with Christ, and my sinful, prideful self is dead. You have made my path blameless and You are my rock. You hear my voice and You respond. Let me not be a parrot, Lord, and let me not turn back to be a pillar of salt, but make me a pillar of stone built upon You. I am guiltless before You because of what You have done for me.
Sustain me, Jesus. Protect me from distraction. Give me perseverance.
“He has delivered us form the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.”
Bleeeeh. That’s my heart right now God.
1 Corinthians 1:7-9
So that you are not lacking in any gift as you wait for the revealing of our Lord Jesus christ, who will sustain you to the end, guiltless in the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is faithful, by whom you were called into fellowship of his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.